and you kissed me when we were alone
passionate and sloppy
but a kiss is a kiss
that cannot be alone
because you need two to kiss
and two to feel
two to be

it was amazing how fast you were at first
wanted to breath me in with every quick beat of your heart
and I wanted you as much
no matter how much I would not admit it

I remember how you smiled
but only for a second
do you remember?
You kissed me again
with more feeling
deeper
and you had pulled me towards you in an effort to get me closer
but no matter how little space there was between us
there was skin
and clothes
and the error of our ways that kept us miles apart
no matter how much more my arms were wrapped around you.

We moved and you kissed me again
and we were alone
I had been cold
but your touch warmed me
and even though I could still hear
and there was no real up in my already racing heartbeat
I kissed you back
and you smiled

you held me there
in your arms
do you remember?
The phone rang
and you carried me there
and I kissed your neck as you talked
how badly had I wanted this for so long
you had no idea
nor do you still
I would keep that to myself
it would be my own secret to myself
one I would only share with myself
when I would be alone

but we were alone
and you kissed me more
you carried me away in your arms
up the stairs and to your room
and there we were
and there we stayed
and we kissed as if the world might’n end

the world around us stood still
allowing us to breath
but I couldn’t
I would hold my breath for you
if it meant you would kiss me again

you were gentle when I asked you to be
and when I pulled you
I felt your aggression
and I remember how pleased you were
how you complimented me so
and I felt the need to have you there

I had never held someone as close
been as playful as I had
and I wanted you
I wanted to push the limits
but I could not
and how badly I wish I had

we did not get far
we separated many a time
staring into each others eyes
our faces a mear millimeter away
you allowed me only such distance
it was only right for that distance
that if I had moved the moon would have fallen to the ocean
and the sun would have become molten
and I would have died within your arms
but at that moment
that very second
how badly I wanted to
I wanted you

I spent a portion of that night with you
and tapped into your soul
thought was twisted
inverted
damned
I did not care
all wrong told me
was wrong
and how right this felt
how very perfect

your arms on my skin
you kissed me still
and you separated from me
but I called you back
and you obeyed me
only just

I left before anything could happen
for right held me back
and I walked down the stairs
you with me
and you turned to tell me goodnight
and I pulled you close again
kissing you with as much passion and as sloppy as you had
when you had broken the cold
and brought fire to my lips

and I left
regretting every step
though right was directing me
and I had left wrong with you
as much as it felt so very right
I had left the error there
but kept it with me
and held onto it dearly
before I knew how wrong right was
how right wrong was
how I barely knew all I knew
and yet I knew you
and how error was right
I left you alone

it was a kiss
a kiss gone a miss
gone to hell in a blink of an eye
that was as passionate as sex
with our clothes on
with the skin that blocked out fire
one we both knew
or maybe I imagined that
but you had called me amazing
beautiful
gorgeous
you had loved my skin
you had loved my eyes
you had loved the way I kissed you hard
the way I bit you gently
let your tongue touch mine
how you had said I was good
how you kissed me every time
had I imagined it?
Had I presented the whole thing in my imagination?

it was just a kiss
but you remembered
said I was obsessed
but you had the fun you wanted
as had I
which is how this a miss had gone to kiss
and kiss had gone to something
that neither of us would ever understand
we would not let us
because we would have to be together
to not be alone
because alone
without its meaning
is alone
and it had meaning
so we were not alone
not with your fire on my thoughts
my mind
my lips
and now
we would never be alone
unless we were alone
like the time we were alone
that one fateful night